I look at other blogs and think... wow, they don't update very much then I look at mine and I'm just as bad!!
The last month or so has been very difficult for me... I'm writing out what I can but I want NO sympathy....
Feelings, emotions, thoughts, fears, and such I've blocked them. Built up walls and shut down inside.
Why? I'm tired. Tired of hurting, tired of being lonely, tired of wishing, tired of dreaming, tired of constant pain, tired of living.
Hopeless... yes, my life is going no where and my hopes and dreams have all but disappeared. I don't even remember what they were any more.
Worthless... yes, I have nothing to offer this world anymore... I just taking up space.
Useless... yes, I can't even help anyone with anything. Even helping myself is beginning to be beyond my grasp.
These are my feelings... no matter right nor wrong... they are how I feel.
I have found that I can't stop fighting when my heart doesn't know how to quit.
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