Scared & Alone

I am so scared...

I can only sit and cry.

Do I want to live? No.
Do I want to die? I don't want to live this way... so, Yes.

I have no hope that I will ever feel any better than I do today.

Today, I feel like the stuff that is lower than the pits of hell.

I have nothing to offer... anyone, anything. Just nothing.

I would like to think that you are my friend...
BUT... I know too, that I can not call when I need a friendly voice, a hug, or just someone to sit and be silent with me.

I have no one, just me... and I don't like me... even my shadow won't stay with me.