Sigh....

Here I sit again in the early morning darkness....

It's been weeks.. no, months since I was able to fall asleep before the first rays of daylight.

I hate this... I am so tired but can't sleep. The only way I can sleep is with medicine... and then it's never restful.

I have so much on my mind but very little of it makes any sense.

I am so lost... if anyone out there knows me... can you please help me find my way home...

I don't know who I am... I don't know where I am going... I don't have any dreams---I gave those up long ago. Can anyone help me figure this out???

What's next when I don't really have a future.... Sigh....