Bad day...

Bad day... really bad... No one home, No one to talk to... trying to weigh out my options. It was and continues to be a huge battle for me tonight.

Decided to leave the house, maybe find something for dinner...

As I was pulling my car out of the garage after a commercial aired... a song came on the radio and all I could do was sob....

Song: I Saw God Today ~~ George Strait.

I drove around in circles... going no where, no one to talk with when I got there. After this song played I couldn't tell what else played as I drove around... was gone for about an hour...

I ended up getting Chinese food because it was easy in, easy out... only said enough to order it to go.. nothing fancy...just chicken and broccoli with enough leftovers to last me a couple more meals.

I need to go to the grocery... need milk. The thought of going to the store alone scares me beyond measure.

Oh...the "thoughts" haven't left... they stayed with me on my drive, joined me for dinner, and sits with me now, in the dark.

I wish tomorrow would disappear... wish I could disappear...