Same old same

Went to sleep some time after the five o'clock hour.

Woke up just before the seven o'clock hour.

It took me a while to get out of bed but finally got up to let the dog out and fed.

I had to feed myself too... Looked around the fridge and cabinets... nothing looked good.
I finally decided to eat the leftovers from last night....Chinese food for breakfast. Let me say that I DO NOT recommend chicken and broccoli for breakfast.

Still surrounded in darkness....though looking out the window, the sun is shining bright. So many thoughts circling my soul, stirring up the dark shadows that live within me.

I keep reminding myself to breathe...just to breathe can be a heavy burden to bare. What is normally an effortless, natural thing our bodies do..to breathe. Sometimes, many times, to me breathing is something for which I have to concentrate. I find myself struggling as if the air is so thick that I can not swallow. An invisible lump in my throat.

I'm so very tired and I have muscles twitching in places that I didn't know muscles could twitch.
My face, specifically the muscles around my right eye are twitching so fast that it looks like I am winking.

I have deep, bone wrenching pain coursing through my feet, legs, arms, and hands. I feel as though a fiery, ice pick is being shoved through my bones. Feel like they could explode...not as if they were a fine china about to break but more like thick fallen tree branch being snapped in two by someone jumping up and down upon the strong part waiting for the weak part to give way.

I'm looking for answers to things for which I have no questions.