Hard to have hope.

Gotta have hope... hold on to hope...
Can't have hope when there is no light.

There is light at the end of the tunnel I am told...
I can see no light as everything has grown darker over the years.
I am surrounded by darkness... it is my only companion.

Hang in there and hold on... are other things I am told.
But these are only words to me.
Words that make me sad.... those words annoy me.

ARGH... mixed up mind... can't find the words to continue.