Still here...

I felt the need to check in tonight...

I'm still here... still in the darkness.

I am sorry for putting the words out here that I know you really don't want to hear. I am sorry for hurting you... I know that words do hurt.

Please know... I am doing what I can to find my way out of the darkness... this monster is HUGE.

I am tired of hurting....
I am tired of fighting....
I am scared....