Here I go again...

It's not quite 2:00am and the tears are rolling down my face...

Why am I crying???

I cry because so much as changed.

I cry because there is nothing I can really do about it...

Sometimes I have no idea why I am crying... well, deep down...I guess I really do know.

I hate this... I hate the way I feel... I hate that everyday my pain is increasing...

I wish I knew what my future holds... more of this?? less of that??? Most likely so.

There is no cure for what I have... only medicines that take off the edge.

Some day, Some how, Some where... Something has to give...

Even the biggest of brick walls fall apart some time....

Yet, I keep adding bricks around my heart.